0 – Severely depressed, suicidal and/or homicidal, requires immediate inpatient treatment, unable to function (in daily activities)
1 – Severely depressed, potentially suicidal and/or homicidal, should be closely watched, inpatient treatment may be necessary, unable to function
2 – Severely depressed, somewhat suicidal and/or homicidal, should be occasionally monitored, no inpatient treatment necessary, unable to function
3 – Moderately depressed, possible thoughts of suicide and/or homicide, should be occasionally monitored, great difficulty functioning
4 – Mildly depressed, passing thoughts of suicide and/or homicide, monitoring recommended but not necessary, some difficulty functioning
5 – Not depressed but not joyful either, in a state of existence, “emotionally numb,” no suicidal and/or homicidal ideations, no monitoring necessary, some ability to function, borderline mood (potential for instant change to a 4 or 6)
6 – Mildly joyful, content, no suicidal and/or homicidal ideations, low functioning problems
7 – Moderately joyful, upbeat, little to no functioning problems
8 – Moderately joyful, happy, optimistic, positive, no functioning problems
9 – Extremely joyful, happy, optimistic, cheerful, positive, “in a good mood,” “feel great,” no functioning problems
10 – Extremely joyful, manic, happy, energetic, euphoric, optimistic, cheerful, self-confident, positive, excited, giddy, ability to function may vary (inability to no functioning problems)
I'm sorry dear Marissa. I know what it feels like to think your spouse would be better off without you. I also know what it feels like to want to die.
It sounds like you were disassociating if you don't really remember what happened. Has that happened before?
I will pray for you. I think of you everyday.
love to you,
G
Posted by: Gianna | May 12, 2008 at 02:57 PM
Oh Marissa, I'm sorry this is so hard right now, I am thinking of you, and just know you are not alone in feeling this way. Your husband as well as everyone else in your life is fortunate to have you in it, I know I am.
Please take care,
Stephany
Posted by: Stephany | May 12, 2008 at 03:28 PM
Marissa, Sending you prayers, love, and hugs. If I could, I'd send you a ton of brownies right now. Chocolate does work miracles. ;-)
Wish I could give you a hug in person because I think that's what you need right now. ((((Marissa)))
Posted by: Michelle (The Beartwinsmom) | May 12, 2008 at 04:38 PM
Marissa, please stay with us. The world is better and more interesting with you in it.
Posted by: Jim | May 12, 2008 at 07:05 PM
Dear Marissa,
I am praying for you. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Sorry to know of the difficult time you have gone through.
Maybe see your pdoc if necessary, to find out if the medicine is causing you problem.
Do know that God loves you and you are precious to God and your husband, your family and friends, and us too in this blogger world.
Don't give up. There is hope and help. Hope you feel better soon!
Hugs and prayers,
Nancie
Posted by: Nancie | May 13, 2008 at 02:00 AM
Marissa,
I'm glad you are still with us. Thank you for your honest post.
Peace.
Posted by: Samantha | May 13, 2008 at 09:01 AM